110728 My special birthday

Happy Birthday to me. I have became a year older than before. Oh, it is really hard for me to believe that i already reach 16. I grow up, i learn, i smile. Everything is good for me. But i could feel that my 16th birthday is quite different than the previous year. The most important thing is my mentality towards my birthday. More matured, with a positive stride. I will never hope for something that i am craving for like before. Because when i didn't receive it, it will indeed let me down. After a year, i have learn to appreciate whatever i have. Thanksgiving and appreciation are always the greatest ways to show your love towards the others, no matter to your family or your friends. Thanks everyone who remember my birthday and have given birthday wishes to me today, both verbally or non-verbally. It will certainly remain in my mind, for a long time to come. =)

A WISH. A BLESS. A DREAM. HOPE THEY WILL ALL COME TRUE.

Life is full of beauty. Notice it.

Notice the humble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces.

Smile the rain, and feel the wind.

Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.

-ASHLEY SMITH-

FRIENDS+TRIO

It's has been a long time i'm not updating my blog. Indeed, i was much busy after the school reopened. Going to Kuala Terengganu for Olimpiad Mathematics Competition, attending the Kursus Kepimpinan Pengawas Peringkat Terengganu 2011 and also a lot of homework. I missed a lot of lessons as i was not around the school. Frankly, i was really very tired. Thus when i came back home, i sleep, i eat and i listen to my music. They really help me a lot in releasing my stress as well as my tension.

Hush, i'm still sticking in front of the computer.

After returning home, i realise that i am going to miss my new friends, especially Vivian and Chee Sin. Although the four-days-two-nights activity was entirely very boring, yet i enjoyed every moment i spent with them. A new bond of friendship was formed during the days. I can say that they are really great enough. It was also the first time i feel that even then are closer with me than my old friends at the school. During these few days we talked, we ate, we took bath together. We even shared our own experiences at our hometown together. The moments spending with two of them are wonderful. And of course, i will never forget the most talkative Vivian. She was the first friend i befriended with when i attended the camp. I can still remember in that rainy day, under the moonlight, only three of us took our bath in the open-air bathroom. That was so relaxing and also "romantic"!

It came to my surprise when Vivian and me found out that both of us had already attended the same camp at Kemaman four years ago! However at that time we didn't know each other yet. I think this is called fate. We are fated to meet each other at this camp.

After this camp, nothing i had learnt. But one thing i get to know was FRIENDS REALLY PLAY IMPORTANT ROLES IN OUR LIVES. EVERYONE NEEDS FRIENDS FOR ACCOMPANY. Having the opportunity to get know two of them was one of the fabulous experiences in my life. It will indeed etch in my mind forever.

Just like i always say:"Fleeting memory can be eternity."

Let us shout it out loud with our friends:

我们

顿时发现，
我们在乎的不是自己，
我们甚至爱的也不是自己。

我们不是为自己而活。

我们没有目标，
我们失去自我，
我们没有灵魂。
我们的心灵早已被掏空，
我们的思绪早已被操控。
我们是寂寞的。
我们是孤独的。
我们需要人陪伴，
我们需要人关爱。

从今以后，
我们不仅要爱别人，
也要学会爱自己，

这就是我们。

近况

我惜福，
我感恩，
我快乐。

我告诉我自己，
就算世上没有你，
我依然可以活得很快乐。
就算这世上少了你，
我也可以活得很自在。

做人不要只会依赖，
而要学会独立。

最后，我要感谢我爱和爱我的人。

Love 50%

During the stressful weekend, i have spared some of my time watching movie again. It was a Singapore U channel feature movie, Love 50% or in Chinese called 《爱情折扣》. Felicia Chin and Kingone Wang from Taiwan starred as a pair of couple in this movie. And i certainly enjoy it so much. It do have a job to make many of us to believe that true, everlasting love is around everywhere. I love the sentence that Hanni always said in the movie—辛苦了，就会有彩虹。There is sunshine after the rain. Overall, it was a quite nice movie. The others may be can have a watch too! Here is the lyrics of the theme song of the movie.

SEVEN STORIES

Tiptoe around you

Make that smile worth my while
Again is this the end of time

A stranger looked at me today
And now I turn my head
Is it easier for me to walk that way

And now I lose myself
‘cos I don’t know who to be
Nothing’s what it seems

What if I told you I
was seven stories high
Would you even reach for me
Keep pulling me back
Pulling me back from
All the things we used to be

Moments gone too easily
Never know it’s hard to keep you
Pulling me back, pulling me back from you

So how do I make you?

Two hands up I admit
I’m still waiting for you
To open up and let me in

I’ll run your race to the end
I’ve got my running shoes on
Tell me where the start begins

And now I lose myself
‘cos I don’t know where to be
Nothing’s what it seems

What if I told you I
was seven stories high
Would you even, for me
Keep pulling me back
Pulling me back from
All the things we used to be
Moments gone too easily
Never know it’s hard to keep you
Pulling me back, pulling me back from you

So how do I make you?

‘Cos you say what you say
And you do what you do
And that’s the last thing I would do

What if I told you I
was seven stories high
Would you even reach for me
Keep pulling me back
Pulling me back from
All the things we used to be
Moments gone too easily
Never know it’s hard to keep you
Pulling me back, pulling me back from you

So how do I make you? If I can’t break through

I am counting.

I am counting.
Counting the complicated numbers.
Counting the value of our friendship.
Counting the time.
Counting the words.
Counting the chemistry of love between you and me.
But could we count our fate?
If we don't get what we crave for,
we can't blame the God.
Just can blame ourselves.
We are not as lucky as the others.
This is out fate.
And we must learn to accept it.
That is what i always tell myself.
I keep on c-o-u-n-t-i-n-g.

花

缘分让四朵金花邂逅，
然后相识。

愿，
我们的友情能够坚贞不渝。
愿，
在往后的日子里，
这四朵金花能够继续在晴空盛开。

New mobile phone

It came to my surprise that my father had bought me a new mobile phone yesterday. Yeah, A NEW MOBILE PHONE. Haha. That's my first thought about that. I never think of that my parents will buy such expensive thing for me as the present of my excellent PMR result last year. This is because they have never done like this before. Even though i got 7A's in my UPSR, but they never gave me present. So, it was quite weird and unbelievable when i received the phone. In short, i do love the phone so much. At last i can own a coloured phone with many applications in it. May be you will think that the mobile phone is quite ordinary, but to me, it is very precious. It is worth spending hundreds ringgit to purchase it.

I admit that i have envied of my friends who possess beautiful, modern handphone with exorbitant prices that my parents definitely can't afford to buy. Nevertheless, now, my dream was achieved! It was really a happy news for me. I was on top of the world when i received the present. Till now, i could hardly to believe that i am the owner of the mobile phone.

Lastly, i would like to conclude that mobile phone is really a great human's invention. It is able to connect the people living in all over the world. Thank you, my beloved father.

高估

顿时发现原来自己一直高估了自己，
原来自己并没有自己想象的那么完美。

泪水

昨天又流泪了。
不是伤心难过得泪，而是感动的泪水。
看戏看到哭了。起初我很果断地告诉大家说我不是个感性的人，但这一次我有得重新揣摩这个问题——我究竟是个感性的人吗？一对情侣难分难舍的画面竟足以刺激我的泪水，使它布满眼眶，然后不由自主地掉了下来。一个字，痛。心在抽搐，除了痛，还是痛。我正在重复聆听着同一首伤心的曲子，脑海里随即浮现昨天那感人的画面。明知道它会使自己的情绪波动，但我还是执意地只想听那首歌。心情一直随着故事的情节走，直到现在仍未平复下来。

爱情的泪水

女生用手蒙蔽男生的眼睛，然后哭着对他说：“把这一切都当成是一场梦。把我第一次出现的画面当成是一场梦，现在我要走了，也把它当成一场梦。如果这一切都只是一场梦的话，那么你的心就不会那么疼痛了。” 男生听了后又说：“不要走。” 但是，命运不是由他们做主的，若他们被注定要分离，他们就一定会被拆散。女生吻了男生一下，最后，她就好像人鱼公主化成泡沫一样，消失不见了......

爱你变失去

School Holiday,,,

It is the much-anticipated school holiday again.
What am I doing during the holiday?

1. Sleeping

First and foremost, i am sleeping. I think i have spent most of my time sleeping during the holiday. Everyday, sleep sleep and sleep. And the cold rainy day is really suitable for sleeping. Although it is enjoyable, sometimes i will feel that it will lead to the waste of time. To me, sleeping is really very important. No matter how busy i am, i would spare my time to sleep. Moreover, i can sleep at anywhere and at anytime. That is why all my family members always describe me like a PIG. Plus i have been nicknamed "fat pig" by my elder sister since i was small.

2. K-pop

I think i am already poisoned by the k-pop toxic. I am addicted to the Korean drama as well as the Korean songs. Back then, i am not an avid fan of the Korea celebrities. I seldom watched their drama and read their news. I always thought what was the reason that was able to make my Malay friends to be crazy of them. And now, i realise already. Yeah, the reason is simple. It is K-POP. You can't easily resist the temptation of k-pop. The male and the female artists are beautiful. G-NA, Hyun Bin, SS501, Wonder Girls, SHINee, Super Junior, Girls Generation and Lee Seung Gi, don't ever tell me you don't know them. Because everybody is already struck down by the K-POP FEVER, including me.

3. KFC

The gathering with my former classmates was held at the KFC again. Oh, my God. Frankly, I hate KFC, just because of i hate fried chicken. Everyday fried chicken, fried chicken and fried chicken. I nearly get fried chicken-phobia. I am fed-up with KFC alrealy. My only favourite food at KFC is the scrumptious CHEESY WADGES as KFC is the only fastfood outlet that we can obtain it. Apart from KFC, nowhere else can we hold our gatherings? Try to find the other better location, my friends!

4. No homework, Yes novel.

There is no the word of "homework" in my dictionary this week. Till now, i haven't complete any of my homeworks yet. The brainstorming monthly exam at school was just over. So it is the time for me to enjoy my life. Don't ever ask me about Sejarah, Additonal Mathematics, Chinese or whatsoever. I won't let those messy things to destroy my precious holiday. Just let my dearly novels to accompany me, ok?

5. 2011 YONEX All England Championships

As we know, theYONEX All England Championship this year was ended with our national badminton player, Lee Chong Wei set up a dream final with Lin Dan. And the most happiest news was Lee Chong Wei had successfully Lee Chong Wei successfully defended his All-England Open men's singles title when he beat his greatest rival, Lin Dan,the Olympic champion from China, by 21-17, 21-17 in the final.The top-seeded Malaysian's triumph came as a surprise to many people, for Lin had beaten Lee in three games the month before last at the world's first million dollar tournament, the Korean Open. Goog job, LCW for he had brought the glory to our nation again!

6. Japan's Earthquake
A massive 8.9 magnitude earthquake hit Japan on last Friday, causing catastrophic damage with blackouts, fire and tsunami. The rescue missions were now swigging into actions. There is nothing we can do, but we at least we can have a moment of silence to pray for the Japanese who are now living with fear.

我们在渐渐走向死亡吗？

人类真的在渐渐投向死亡的怀抱吗？——

昨天日本发生了140年以来前所未有的8.9级大地震，震惊了全世界。
爸爸说：“我们的地球真的出现问题了。要不然一年内怎么会有那么多的天灾发生？”
老姐说：“明年是世界末日咯！”
三妹说：“天啊！那这里会不会有地震？那我就要死了咯！我不要啊！”
我说：“走，一起去死吧！”

我的反应比较正经，还有洒脱一些。这段时间我都在慢慢使自己接受与面对自己即将面临死亡的事实。因此，现在我想我已对死亡没有任何抗拒了。既然要死，就该死的洒脱一些。忘了是在哪一本书看到的一句话，“我们做人要学会拿得起，放得下，因为这地球就算少了我们，还一样旋转！”反复思考这句话，觉得它挺有道理的嘛，所以就这样记起来了。我和朋友常讨论这个话题，我们都有一个共同点，那就是我们早已对接蹱而来的天灾产生了麻木的感觉。

我们常说，大地病了，大地在萎缩，大地过早的到了更年期，这些我都知道。是人类在践踏大地，是人类在对大地自杀式的摧毁，这些我也都知道。不过，我们人类现在才来献出自己的一份力量，会否显得太迟了，还有对这一切都于事无补了？

要是明年真的是世界末日，那最好是落在SPM考试之前。那么我就不需要读那么多的书，读到大脑的细胞都快全死光了。虽然没有机会和自己心爱的人谈一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱，但却能够和全世界的人一块儿死去，无所谓啦！我的最佳死亡地点，是我的被窝。最佳死亡时间，则是晚上。最好是让我在睡眠中死去，而不是在痛苦的折磨与挣扎中死去。一切若能如我所愿，那简直就是太完美了！

你们或许会觉得我这个人有病，但其实我并没有。请给予我多一些这种幻想的空间，那么人生才会过得快乐一些。

I'm not afraid of death. It's the stake one puts up in order to play the game of life. ~Jean Giraudoux, Amphitryon, 1929

记得徐志摩的一句话：“悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄地来，我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。”
人生何尝不是如此？

生活中的天秤

没有花的绿色是寂寞的。——


第一次发现原来绿色也会寂寞。它被人视为呼唤大地的伟大颜色，同时它的孤独也被人忽略了。我们都忘记了，绿色是需要花的点缀才会显得更绚丽夺目。没有花儿作伴，它是孤独的。

第一次发现原来在学业上有卓越的表现，是错的。


原来我不断地要求自己在课业上考取好成绩，是错的。
原来老师选我当巡查员，是错的。
原来老师选我参加诗歌比赛，是错的。
原来我考到A+，也是错的。

妳常说，我的成绩无形中会带给妳压力。
妳常说，坐在我旁边有时会使妳喘不过气来。

这些话我都听到麻木了。

妳常只想到妳自己，
妳又是否曾站在我的立场思考过？

我的心不是铁制成的。
它也会痛，只是妳不知道而已。
妳常笑说我不介意，其实我是介意的。
只是妳不知道，
那段要从不习惯变成习惯的过程消耗了我多少的精力与时间。

妳是否想过，其实是妳想太多了。
我很想告诉妳，
成绩并不代表一切。
成绩并不能衡量我们的友情。

我心中的绿色常为妳而绽放，同时它也有变成灰色的时候，只是妳不知道而已。

加油呗

只想告诉自己，不要给自己太大的压力。
只想告诉自己，这只是一项简单的任务。
只想告诉自己，冲吧！
只想告诉自己，加油。
=)

清晨六时六十六分六十六秒

我期待着清晨六时六十六分六十六秒的到来。
可惜，这一天永远都不会降临。

之所以不可能，才希望变可能。

我常在想着，若真的有这一天，我会在干什么？
我会和我心爱的人在一起。

在此祝大家情人节快乐。

拾忆

Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you have, and the thing you never want to lose. -Kevin Arnold-

我在追溯着以往的记忆。
我究竟长得什么样子，我以前究竟在干些什么。
我说的不是我的前世，而是我幼年的时候。
我在那个时候干了很多荒谬的事情。整个人傻里傻气的。
如今回首当时的情景，真想说，千万别告诉人家那件事使我干出来的。

有时候，我真的不知道自己在想些什么。
真令人迷惘。令人迷惑。

人就是这样，双眼总是被贪婪所蒙蔽。
孩提的时候总是想着要去到未来，到了未来却一心盼望着拥有更好的未来，
带快走到人生的尽头的时候，才发现到自己的孩提时代是世上最珍贵最独特的回忆。

Bon Voyaye

Farewell? Yes, farewell.

Today was a little bit cloudy with outbreaks of rain and cloudy. It was synonymous with my feeling—sad. I was really very devastated as almost half of my former classmates are going to leave me and move to a new school. So a successful farewell party was thrown in honour of those who want to move to a new and a better study environment. At the same time, it was also held to celebrate the glory that we had brought for our school—107 out of 183 get straight A's in PMR 2010. It was a brand new record that we had broken last year. All of us were very elated that our hard work was paid off. I BELIEVE THAT WE ARE THE BEST!

There were a lot of yummy-looking food that made my mouth watered at the party. Chocolate cake, banana cake, curry noodles, nasi minyak, snacks, fried vermicelli and so on. And i think the most memorable event that occurred today was all 3A students last year had gathered together again to celebrate one-know's birthday! She mentioned that she was really very surprised and feel happy of this birthday celebration. We had left such a fantastic moment for her. And for sure, this perfect moment will be etched in her mind forever. Many fabulous photos had been taken today. I truly enjoy looking at the photos. And soon, the party came to THE END.

With heavy heart, i bade adieu to all of them.

And you know, you will then know you are in love when you feel that the hardest thing is to say goodbye.

Tears almost roll down on my cheek.

A true confession from me: I love you all guys.

I love you.

It was like a beautiful fairy tale had came to the beautiful end. We have to close the book and everything will be starting all over again. A new story have to be created again. Will our story last forever? Perhaps it will.

Dear Anis, Diyan, Azim, Fatin, Aimi, Faisal, Farhana, Ain, Aisyah, Najiah, Muaz, Afiq:
take good care of yourself and strive hard to be one of the excellent students in SPM, like what you have done in your PMR. Always be happy and enjoy your life there. And the most important thing is do keep in touch. =)

This is the last message from me, so please bear in mind of this.

If you don't want to say goodbye, then
"Never say goodbye. Because saying goodbye means going away. And going away means forgetting."

- Peter Pan -

星星瓶子里的愿望

我把自己的愿望都装进了瓶子，却不知道它们会否实现。

有谁愿意和我携手共度这一段充满荆棘的旅程，与我一同冲破一道道厚厚的围墙，走到成功的康庄大道？
快答应我吧，至少让我知道，在这个所寻找成功的过程当中，我并不孤单。

只要坚信自己的心是美丽的，那么自己就是美丽的。
只要保持美丽的心，那么所有愿望必定能实现。

Edge of Darkness

I have changed the title of my blog. I rename it with "Edge of Darkness". Frankly, i just copy it from the television. Nothing special about it, but i love the words. In the year of 2011, no more enduring memories, the only thing left behind is darkness.

I used to be a shimmering adorable star hung in the sky before, but now, i have lost my luster.
I become the ordinary one.
Amongst the stars, i desire to be the most shiny one.
Because that is the only way for the people to pay attention to you.
However, that is not an easy thing to do.
I have to work hard, to be persevered and determined to achieve what i crave for.
Sometimes, i feel like i want to give up. Just give up and become the simple and the ordinary star.
Nobody will find you.

Nevertheless,
who want to be the non-special one?
Everybody want to be the unique one.

我曾经是天空中那颗最耀眼的星星。可惜，如今，我已失去了我的光彩。
我沦落成黑暗中最普通的那颗星星。

众多的星星当中，我想要成为最闪耀的那颗。
我渴望的到人们的注意。
旦，那是一件说易行难的事。
我必须努力，坚持到底，才能成功。
旦，有时候，我累了。放弃的念头不断在脑里徘徊。
别奢望太多，成为极为普通的那颗星星吧！

但是，
谁不想成为天空最最独特的那颗星星？
谁不想？
我记得一个学妹曾说过：因为没人，所以独特，因为独特，所以没人。


If you lose hope, then find hope.

If you are lack of confidence, then find confidence.
If you are not determined enough, then be determined.

Because, at the edge of darkness, there are always a flickering of light and a glimmering of hope.

当你绝望的时候，那就去寻找希望吧。
当你失去信心的时候，那就去寻找最初的自我吧。
当你想放弃的时候，那就去寻找恒心吧。

因为，在黑暗的边缘，总有一道曙光与一线希望。

I'm Back

It has been a long time i disappear from here. Luckily, at last i come back for the sick missing of my blog. Happy New Year to everyone.

For welcoming the new year, i think the perfect song to be heard is "A New Day Has Come" sung by the famous singer, Celine Dion.

#A new day has...come

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you#

2011.
A brand new year. A brand new day. And, a brand new life.

Full of joy and pride, I have successfully get 8A's in my PMR last year. And now i am in form 4 already. It is hardly to believe that i am not a lower secondary student anymore. Time is flying so fast. The lives of these two years are totally different. There are a lot of new things that i have to learn to cope up with. There is a new environment that i have to learn to adapt to. There are a lot of new classmates that i need to get along. I start to think of my previous classmates as well as my class, 3 Amir Awesomeness.

I MISS YOU, GUYS.

When everything has been messed up, and you must learn to encounter it and solve the problem.
While making a choice, you must think wisely carefully and always think about the consequences.

I used to face a problem before whether i have to choose to be in Science stream or Account stream. I love counting. And i love biology as well. It was really a difficult decision to be made. Finally, in the torn between numbers and biology, i sacrifice account and i choose science. I will not not regret about my decision. One lesson i have learnt from this experience: while making a choice between whatever you love, you can only choose one and sacrifice another one. The main point is not at what you want to choose, on the other hand, it is what you want to sacrifice. That is why i really hate making choices.

When you find one thing that is very tough, you must not frown.
Always be happy and think optimistically.

• I love counting. So, i do love Mathematics, Additional Mathematics and Physics as well!
• I love learning parts of my body. So, Biology is an interesting subject to be learnt!
• I am a creative person, so i can write excellent essay in English!
• I like memorize facts, so i love Moral and History!
• Bahasa Melayu is an easy subject to score. So do enjoy your lesson!
• Chinese is my mother language, so i will not give it up!
• I am expert in Chemistry, so i enjoy learning it!

That is what i usually tell myself when i step in upper secondary.
Our life is fleeting.
A beautiful dream need to be created——10A+ in SPM2012.